To stay or NOT to stay

Over the past few months, many friends asked me.....Have u adapted well to Berkeley and its surroundings already? Do you still intend to go back home to Malaysia or somewhere nearer to home? How many % that you wished you want to go back? Well...when I first came here, I would say I want to return home 100%, and after 7 months here, maybe I can give myself a benefit of a doubt to 60%. Many of them said, after a few more months, you will not want to go back!...Hmm..we'll just wait and see what lies beyond this speculation...I am still searching for that 'something'....it is beyond explanation but I never felt this way before...all my life I am so sure of my path that I will be going through, but after coming here, I realized that I have to do some 'soul' searching...people may think I am feeling lost or depressed or lonely....I am yet to figure it out. Is it the environment, the people or is it just me? I think it is a mixture of everything combined together, little by little it builds up more and more to an extend that the confusion is beyond control....this is what I am feeling now.....